Next generation, nek generation
The big news for me this year, was resigning from television after 20 years.
My decision to resign eventuated when I realised I needed to change. Mind you, that 'time' has occurred a few times in my life.
With four sons aged 13, 17, 19 and 21. I as 'Mum', took it upon myself to be the breadwinner for my family. I worked when I was heavily pregnant, I worked within three days of giving birth to my youngest two sons, I worked 20 hour days, seven days a week for six years, I worked five jobs at once, I ran entire productions as producer, production manager, director, editor, camera operator, compile editor, floor manager as well as run events, manage tours, select tunes and perform backing vocals for my rapper husband.
As a proud grandmother, daughter, sister and working mother, I have gone back to freelance work to enable more time and energy for my creative projects namely; my music.
20 years is a long time to be in the system. And then on top of this predicament, work like a maniac in order to achieve all the things you set out to do creatively while working a 9-5 job. Note to self: Only.crazy.people.do.this.
Meanwhile, I am actually working harder than I have ever before, whilst simultaneously scrambling for that illusive time with family, friends and oneself.
I am taking it on the chin like a champ and looking at this current phase as 'testing the waters' and 'finding balance'. However, my biggest issue is; how do I pass on this work ethic to my children and grandchildren with their sanity intact?
The more I examine my life, the more I realise I have created an extraordinary life for myself in order to survive and provide for my family.
The past 28 years have been spent ensuring that I do not repeat the cycle from my childhood and sometimes adulthood. The real trick is; learning to live.